I NEED A PLAN AGAIN

how could i justify pulling into my savings and working on art/writing fulltime?

thoughts?

last minute grant opportunities?

hello?

anyone there?

((edit: also will you let me sleep on your couch?))

boredom and the advent of the modern dance mashup

suddenly i feel like this blog is pretty fucking lame again
maybe it will get cooler once i get my head into/out of my books again/never

anyway

here are some things that i made
instead of writing about performance and proto-modern dance
and lesbianism and the scientific gaze
like i was supposed to

today.

I stood in front of my window

looking out across the grey sky as it rained

my flannel shirt still damp from walking through the rain

or perhaps simply dank from the fact that

i've been wearing it for the past three days.

i stood looking out from the third floor

slowly eating chili and drinking milk from a quart

with a straw that I had taped to the carton

so that it wouldn't drop into the milk

so i wouldn't have to fish it out with my fingers.

and i just thought

like

goddamn

this is the most beautiful moment of the month.